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[jespermoore]

The tingling feelings in his hands were getting worse the more the time passed, he really needed something to do or he would go insane. Sitting alone was never a good thing and especially when you were higher than a mountain. If he kept this up he would probably start hallucinating at any moment now, but he wouldn't let that happen and instead of staring at his hands shaking he got up from the pretty broken chair. Somehow his posture was elegant and he moved gracefully over the floor through the hallway, gathered his shoes and a jacket, after all, it was cold during the nights. And as the sun had already disappeared from the night sky, this day was not an exception.

He folded up the jackets arms, just slightly over his underarms, if he went all the way to the fold of the arms, his bruises would become visible and that was something you really didn't want showing. He felt watched wherever he went, pure paranoia from the meth or just straight thinking considering he after all lived in a vampire ruled world, but in a weird way he felt safe. This was far better than the outside, with the zombies and what not. However, he was pretty careless as his blood hadn't dried out completely from the little stick in his vein, from the injection earlier, though he didn't care, considering everyone could have that sort of bleeding wound, weren't they all supposed to give up blood? Something Jesper had failed to do ever since he got here, or just misplaced in his head, or on purpose avoided it cause he also knew the no drug law. But if someone asked, he would said he had misplaced it and if that didn't work, meth was strictly for medical use. A little lie hadn't killed anyone and on the other way of seeing it, he couldn't really function without it.

In his oh so happy land he went out with a smile on his lips, showing a pair of perfectly lined teeth and eyes that was sparkling mischievously, yet playfully, though his pupil was dangerously extended it was easily forgotten with the charming glistening. He began walking up on the street, a few more people were out but not anyone he knew, he frankly didn't know a lot of people here. For being a social butterfly, he did not like to know people where he lived, he didn't like when it got too personal and some sort of privacy was needed. For a moment he thought about going to any of the casinos, clubs and bars but in the middle of it changed his mind and went for the park, he wanted to be surrounded by beauty for awhile.

But once he was in the park, his mood changed. He liked the thought of the flowers and all the green plantation around him, but it was the white flowers that upset him. He went up to a nicely arranged bunch of white flowers, leaned down just enough to grab one of them, used his nails to pinch off one and then rise it to his face. He hated their purity and innocence. He started picking the white petals one by one, slowly in a torturing manner making the beautiful flower more naked and vulnerable until there simply wasn't anything left of it. If an earth elemental would see him ruining their beloved plants, he was in for some hell. And therefor he hurried away to another part of the park, like a kid that knew he had done something bad and ran away from his problems until they weren't chasing him anymore.

Easy as that he had forgotten it all, with a heavy breathing from the running he sat down by a bench, used his fingers to comb through the hair and make the tickling hair strands in his eyes move away as he watched the park bathing in the light of the moon. It was just as beautiful as he had pictured it, it made him almost forget about the harsh world outside New Vegas.

[Excuse me for any grammar problems, I'm Swedish so yeah, English is not my first language and the only English I can I have been thought in school. However, feel free to join. ]

[aeron]

Aeron=

Aeron had to get out. Anika was too busy for him and so were his Dads. Lately he was going through some rather big changes in how he felt about some things in his life but he had no one he could talk to. To Anika, he was just a pet. A love slave and sex toy to be used and one day, she would throw him away. To his fathers he was just a boy who would never be more than a boy and would always be naive little Aeron. To him, he was Aeron and he was one birthday away from making his choices. To be human or vampire, to be male or female. They were big decisions and to be made in only three months. And then there was his career as a singer, where was that going to go? And no one to talk to. Feeling vulnerable he was take to his androgynous state that lay somewhere between male and female but leaning toward a slightly more masculine side. He was overcome by emotion again and just had to get out.

As he left the Arabian Nights Hotel and Casino, he decided he would go to the park. As he walked he fought back tears. With all the people around him he was just not allowed to be himself. He was not allowed to love, to be himself, he was at someones beck and call all the time. If he was allowed to initiate any of his activities it was only because it was on the whim of his mistress. He was reminded constantly that he was only a pet. He constantly found her in the arms of other men in seductive embraces. Especially that fucking Vengeance. Even when he had been mugged, he had been forced to take his mistresses blood to heal himself. That was both humiliating and made him feel like less of a man. Maybe he wanted to feel that pain. Any outside pain would be better than this pain. The pain of being alone in a crowded room.

So, he had developed a little addiction that Anika didn't know about. It was an addiction that no one knew about. Except for the V dealer who supplied him with the vampire blood that would take away any sign of his addiction. It was as he entered the park that he saw his contact and walked right up to him. No words were exchanged, just money and the silver thermos filled with what he needed after he got his fix.

He took great strides through the park, fighting back tears but failing miserably. He wiped at his running eyeliner. He had a spot where he always went. No one ever went there but him and if he sat behind the bench, no one could see him even if they did come. He went straight there. He sat down behind the bench and set the thermos next to himself. He quickly rolled up his sleeve then reached down and pulled a small sharp dagger out of his boot. His hands shook with the anticipation of the release of pent up frustration, anger and agony. One day, he was going to run away from all this. One day, he would be his own person and no one could tell him what to do.

He took the small dagger and made a shallow cut as he sliced across his arm. His eyes rolled back with the relief he found from the endorphins that the pain released. It was his own form of heroine. It was an addiction no one could trace. He had vamp blood to heal the cuts when he finished so even Anika wouldn't know. He ran the blade across his arm again and sighed with relief as blood welled up from the cut and rolled down his arm. Suddenly someone sat on the bench.

Normally he wouldn't say anything but the guy was breathing hard and with the moonlight shining on him, it seemed like he wasn't hiding very well anyway. He sighed in an annoyed way, "Do you mind? This spot is taken, and I was here first." he whined.

[jespermoore]

Jesper had been high enough to not even notice the guy hiding behind the bench, cause what normal person wouldn't sit on the bench instead of behind it? It wasn't until the other one talked that he actually put any notice to him at all. At first his adrenaline went high from getting scared by the voice in the dark, and with some paranoid thoughts he really thought he was getting arrested now.

That was until he actually listened to what the person was saying. “Are you kidding? From what I know it's a free area and I got just as much as right to be here as you do, besides you aren't even using the bench the proper way so just maybe you are the one that should leave if you do not like the situation.” He turned around, getting upon his knees on the bench and just stared at the mangirl before him for the first time. What was that? From the voice he would've said it was a man, by the looks it was a feminine man. More feminine than Jesper was and even though Jesper was pretty feminine in his appearance, that was just extreme. For a slight moment he thought the drugs were mindbullying him.

“What are you?” he mumbled out, it could be taken as what race he was but he seriously was wondering all of that, but mostly if it was a man or a woman. He leaned forward more over the back of the bench, inching closer to the other one as he soon was close enough to exchange breathing with each other. Eventually he smiled, charmingly. “You are cute.” Cute but not Jesper's type really. He wanted manly men, but the boy could so become a teddybear. His hand without him knowing it reached out only to touch the boy over his nose lightly, pressed on it softly and then gave away a chuckle. “I don't think you mind me being here, you look lonely either way.” He couldn't care less if he was disrespectful.

The eyes soon enough started following down the feminine male's body, he sure did see the blood over his arm, for a short second he stared up at him before he looked down on the arm again. Then leaned back with a low humming as he was thinking. Had he done it on purpose, the knife in the other hand just screamed yes and even if the evidence was clear, Jesper couldn't get it in his mind. “Are you cutting yourself?” he simply asked. He wasn't sugarcoating anything. He really couldn't blame him after all since his own escape was the meth. It was a horrible world and if this boy was a free spirit like Jesper it was even more horrible. “You know that is dangerous right? What if someone finds you trying to do that?” He tilted his head to the side wondering. Jesper was awfully chatty, most cause he felt lonely and wanted someone to be social with.

[aeron]

While his spiky hair and eyeliner were enough to make it difficult to tell his gender as it was, his body was in its neutral state so it would be impossible to make any gender identification. It still bothered him to be asked what he was. He glared at the boy. “I am not a what, I am a who and I am Aeron.” He stated flatly. He watched the other guy closely, forgetting about the cuts on his arm for a moment.
He watched him inch closer and closer. He didn’t flinch when he reached out to touch him. “Cute?” he said incredulously, “You think I’m cute?” He dropped his dagger and got up on his knees. He kept his face very close to the newcomer. “I am fucking adorable. I surpassed cute when I was 8 years old.” He reached up and poked him on the nose gently, “You are rude.” He informed him but then he almost grinned. His body must have felt the need to be more masculine as his features changed and became quite manly and his voice lowered three octives.


“And now, I’m a fucking God.” He said and grinned. He looked down at the cuts on his arm and quickly picked up his thermos. He pulled off the top and downed the stuff inside. He dropped the thermos then waited a moment before looking at his arm again. “Oh that?” he said innocently, “Just stage makeup.” He wiped the blood off his arm just as the cuts fully healed, “See? It’s a play knife.” He stuck the dagger back in his boot.

“So who are you and what are you doing this deep in the park? Don’t you know the centaur will get you?” he wondered if this kid even knew about the centaur. “Or do you just not care if he does?” His more masculine features softened just slightly in the moonlight as he smiled genuinely.

[jespermoore]

”Well excuse me then Aeron. I'm Jesper.” He introduced himself, wondering if he shouldn't have kept it a secret and played more mindgames with him before revealing it. But for this time he decided to be nice and just simply said it out. “Yeah, I think you are cute.” And he stood by his words, he was sort of cute, in his behavior that was. As the other got up on his knees he stood still on his own knees on the bench and just watched him, his eyes didn't move away a single second. He let out a loud laugh with the words and eventually tilted his head back with a soft smirk over his face.

“Oh yeah? What if I decide to call you cute right here and now huh? What would you do about it?” His nose wrinkled itself by the poke and he laughed softly once again. “If I'm rude, you are simply cute.”He was in for a shock as the other simply transformed himself, what the hell? His hands on the back support of the bench pressed his body away from it but the fingers were still holding onto it, he stared at him. Now he had his answer at least, mutant, probably. Nevertheless, it was a hot transformation and Jesper wondered lightly if the guy could transform to any type of human or being. “You did that cause you didn't feel like a man or what?” He teased.

As the other said he was a god, Jesper busted out laughing. “Sure you are. From what I know, Gods have like these huge freaking beards and stuff, usually old. And you totally lack the beard and the age so you aren't a God.” Why didn't they just find an angel and asked if Aeron was a God? He patted him on his head softly. “You can be a God in your own pretty little head if you like.” He stood up on the bench, rested his knees against the back support of the bench as he leaned forward more to watch the fascinating creature in front of him.

He watched as the cuts disappeared from his arm and the blood got wiped off. “Humm..” He hummed for himself, that was actually pretty amazing. “What play are you in?” he wondered, or did he just like to run around with fake blood on his arms? “Oh, that is rather stunning actually.” He smiled, glad it wasn't worse. Jesper was pretty naive too what people said, at least when he didn't know the person that good.

The centaur? Jesper had never heard of such a thing, would it be living in the park? “The centaur?” he asked softly. Half man and half horse? He laughed softly by the thought of it, he had actually never seen a centaur or anything else like that. Had heard stories though. “What will he do if he finds me here? Stomp me to death by his almighty hoofs?” He tilted his head to the side and watched Aeron. “What are you doing here then if he comes?”

[aeron]

Being the diva that he was, Aeron didn’t like being teased but being raised by vampires, he had a confidence most humans didn’t have. He also had an attitude that he could get away with since everyone around him knew who his fathers were. This guy was playful and Aeron had not played with anyone in a long time. Not just for the hell of it.

Just to throw the guy off, he gave him a sultry, smoldering look at he forced his body to turn completely and utterly female. His mistress liked to play with this part of himself, or now herself, as much as she liked the male version.




“Perhaps you prefer a goddess?” she asked with and amused smile. “Or do you swing the other way?” she grinned at him sheepishly, “Me, I can go either way.” With that she erupted into a fit of giggles and involuntarily Aeron shifted back to his neutral form. Anything to distract the guy form the cuts he no longer had on his arms due to consuming the vampire blood. But now he was pumped. He was ready to take on the world.

“The centaur is the guardian of the park and you really don’t want to fuck with him because he is Thors golden boy.” He said when he could breathe and talk again. “He will tear you up if you so much and come close to any of the fabled creatures in here. But they stay hidden behind the fence that surrounds the inner park.” He explained. “Don’t tell me you are dumb enough to go look for him, or is it not brave enough to go look for him?” he asked facetiously.

[jespermoore]

The guy.. or girl.. Something in between in front of him actually was really entertaining and if not as playful as Jesper was. He thought it looked pretty painful as the guy sort of shapeshifted but he didn't hear any painful groans coming from the other's mouth, he actually seemed to enjoy being able to become what gender he preferred. Jesper would probably like that idea though, mutants were so cool. He actually felt pretty hopeless just being an ordinary boring human being. He would've preferred being something cool like a mutant or a werewolf?

Jesper laughed softly and tilted his head to the side, as he shook his head at the other being. “Girls are pretty but I don't like pretty things, so I guess I swing the other way.” He didn't want to give him a complete answer to that actually. He pushed his head back straight and his eyes went across the others body. “So like when you are in this form.. Do you have a male thing down there or a female? Or could you like change?” Jesper was really fascinated and therefor the rather odd questions, he didn't have a stop button either. Absolutely not right now at least when he was high and also on speed that he could probably run around like a five year old for the past hours.

“Thor's golden boy huh?” For a moment he only thought about a centaur sprayed in golden paint, but he knew that it wasn't that Aeron meant, still his mind couldn't help itself right now. He smiled some. “I'll try and be a good boy and let the angry creatures live there alone.” His lips turned into a grin, now he was pretty eager at running into the inner park and then just run out again. Just to see what could really happen.” He laughed some and leaned forward to the other boy, inching closer as his eyes closed themselves halfway, he gazed at him with a daring look. “Well.. Do you dare to look for him?” Jesper had never seen a centaur from what he knew. Probably why he still was alive as well. He would probably be pushing his luck if he tried too.

[aeron]

Aeron giggled again as he asked him if he had a penis when he was neutral, “I have one or the other or I have both in my neutral state. It kind of sucks sometime but I like this state, I’m fabulous this way!” he threw his arms out then hugged himself. “You’re funny and cute. I like you.” He said then moved his face close to Jesper’s and pocked his nose.

“You want to get high and go in the restricted area?” He didn’t know why he asked that, maybe because he could tell Jesper was high. “We can be friends you and I.” he said and began to walk toward the fence. “Maybe even friends with benefits, if you don’t bore me.” He said and erupted into giggles again.

The vamp blood had him hopped up and feeling very good. He was sure he the vamp had fed off a druggy before selling him the blood. The Vampire blood itself was enough to boost his testosterone levels enough that he probably wouldn't be turning into a female again any time soon. “HOLY FUCK! My dick is hard!” he exclaimed and adjusted himself. Then as if he never said anything at all he turned and looked at Jesper playfully, “Come on! You aren’t afraid of the centaur are you?” He teased with a wicked grin.

[jespermoore]

Jesper for a moment tried to imagine how that would look lie in his head but it just left him even more confused so he soon enough let go of the thought, surely he could just rip the creature's pants off but some decency he actually had, he could still do it though. His hands almost wanted to do it just to ease his own curiosity but he stopped them and instead pushed them down in his pockets of his own clothes. “That's so cool!” he burst out anyway, to not seem awkward, even though it was in fact pretty awkward to talk to the other about it.

His nose by automatic wrinkled itself by the poke and he smiled. He felt like this could turn out to be a pretty awesome friendship, maybe even more than that. “Oh well thank you, you fabulous person.” He said in a pretty old fashioned voice before he glanced over at the restricted area, thinking, even if he already knew his own answer. “Yeah! Why not? Though, I think I'm high enough to be honest sweetie.” He walked to the fence as well, spying into the woods to see if anything moved in there. A soft laugh left his lips. “I'll try my best to not bore you then.”

He yet again burst out in a laugh when Aeron said his dick was hard, what ad happened to that pissed off guy he had just met? He seemed almost erased and now he had this funny guy there, just being amazing and fabulous right in front of him. “No I'm not!” He shouted like a five year old trying to prove he could do anything and wasn't scared. He went into the park, glancing back at Areon. “Are you coming, horndog?” He began to walk into the restricted area, passing by trees and walking deeper into the forest like park. He turned around and began walking backwards so he could watch Aeron while he walked. That was until he stopped and learned forward to the other. “You want to do something naughty?” His eyes shimmered as he placed his lips against his ear and with a seductive voice he spoke. “Let's fuck.. Right here..” he whispered. He leaned back, the clearly drugged eyes almost seemed to sparkle in the dark, he was excited. Public sex was his favorite thing, the thrill of getting caught could almost make him come right there and now. He could feel the bulge in his pants press against the fabric, wanting release.

[aeron]

Aeron didn’t have to be asked twice. The “V” in his system was making his testosterone levels spike and he was full on male and horny as a mother fucker at that moment. He probably couldn’t turn female at that moment if he tried. That was ok because he remembered that Jesper preferred males so he was just fine with that. The prospect of public sex was always exciting, especially when he was so horny.

A wicked grin spread across his face and he sat down in the grass and pulled off his platform boots, “Hell yeah.” He laughed then stood up to pull off his shirt. “Ok so you like boys, I’m all man now,” he said thoughtfully, “How do you want to do this? You a top, a bottom or do you want to switch off, I’m good with either.” He stated and unbuttoned the top button of his jeans.

He stopped and gave Jesper a teasing grin, “I’ll leave these for you to take off.” He said and reached out to drag his long finger down Jesper’s body, making sure to drag it across his manhood last. “This is going to be so fun.” He almost whispered.

[jespermoore]

For a moment Jesper just stood and stared across the others body, just glaring along it, without knowing he bit softly down onto his lower lip and sucked onto it lightly before he started to move again. Even though his eyes were focused on the other body he gripped his own shirt to slide it off just before he had dropped his own jacket on the ground. He lifted his first foot to get off his shoe and the sock before he did the same to the other. It was rather cold underneath his bare feet but he knew that soon enough his body would be all heated up, with certainty since his body was already pumping the blood out much faster.

He smiled some and took a step closer to Aeron before he gripped onto his hips and forced him up against the tree, his lips started to wonder down his neck, kissing, sucking, licking before they moved up to his ear. “And a sexy man you are.” He whispered against the ear before sucking on the earlobe gently, then he let go off it so his exciting breathing just lightly hit against his ear. He could fair enough say that Aeron was one of the hottest males he had ever got the opportunity to sleep with. “Switch” he mumbled as his hands wondered over Aeron's abdomen, feeling the muscles underneath the skin before he bended his head back to look into the other eyes. “What do you got on you? You said we could get high. Still want to get high?” he said close to the other. Before he leaned in to meet up with the lips, he used his tongue to part the lips and find the mutants tongue, savoring the sweet nectar from the others mouth as his hands caressed the chest. The hands moved down to the unbuttoned jeans and he started to pull them off before he ended the kiss with a soft nibble on the lower lip. “I want to get high.. Let's get high” he mumbled seductively against the others lips as he innocently looked up in his eyes. How lucky wasn't Jesper that he always found someone this naughty with drugs on them? He pushed down the jeans enough to let them fall down on the ground by themselves.

[aeron]

So he wanted to switch off. Aeron liked it when he got with a gay guy. He liked gay sex. It was the ultimate turn on for him although he would never tell anyone that. For now it was sufficient for people to think he liked all sex equally, even if this was his favorite. “You first.” He murmured as he slid his hands down Jesper’s body to rest them on his hips. “It’s been awhile since I have been with a man, and I really missed it.” He added to let Jesper know how much he wanted it. “Dominate me.” He moaned softly.

“I have ecstasy and V.” he murmured to answer Jesper’s question about the drugs. He always had ecstacy. It was supposed to be the “safe” drug since it was legalized by the vampires as long as it was the stuff THEY made. Which was fine with him because it was good stuff. He had a feeling they used vamp blood to make it. “But it’s in my pocket and…I can’t reach it right now.” He said with a mischievous grin. “Feel free to reach down and fish it out of my pockets.” He said and looked down at his jeans, “Be sure to tell me if you discover anything else interesting down there.” He added as he pushed his magnificently hard cock against Jesper.